I had to get out a calculator to figure out what day of the year it was. Did I get it right? So my 3-4 posts a week isn't happening, but you know sometimes you just have those times in life when you have to re prioritize. That happens to me alot. I bite off more than I can chew frequently...would you call that a sickness (tee hee). Actually, this is just one of those seasons of transition. When I have alot on my mind, I turn into an insomniac and that's not so great because I'm one of those that needs at least nine hours of sleep an night to begin with. I've been getting about six or seven and it's wearing on me. I often have to do a heart check. I think when I get to this point, God has been showing me in many ways that I need to give those burdens of worry, uncertainty, unrest etc. to Him, but I usually miss the gentle messages and don't listen until I'm on the edge of a breakdown. It's actually a good reminder of the fact that I'm not in control and that I need to spend time with Him daily to have that energy, peace and eternal perspective that I long so deeply for. Yesterday after church we put the kids down and I laid down on the couch and watched a movie. Every fiber in my body wanted to get up and sit down at the computer and work on photography "stuff", but I didn't. I even slept for about 30 minutes after the movie. We even watched a second movie last night after the kids went to bed. (Those of you that know me well...try not faint at this thought). My head is so much clearer this morning and I can feel a calm I haven't felt in a while. The verse...Be still and know that I am God...comes to mind. God himself rested on the seventh day, not because He had to but because He was setting the example for us. Why don't I get the hint from that? Maybe because I'm too busy trying to be in control of my life and forgetting that not only am I not in control...I truly don't want to be in control. So, today, when the kids nap, I will be still in His presence and pray for a renewed spirit and lay my burdens at His feet. Thank you God for be patient with me, for being a God of love and compassion and for being in control of my life.
Jeremiah 29:11 "For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you a hope and a future."
Okay...here are a few pictures of my Miss Abby. Here lately she's been not very cooperative because the glare (I guess because of all the rain we've had) has been hurting her eyes. I love these of her...can't you just see her spirit in that grin and those eyes? Love her sooooooooooooooooooo much!!!
I'd love any HHCC you have!!!
4 comments:
Such a cutie! I love the softness of these pics, great job with the white background
Aewesome photos as usual. She certainly does have that sparkle.
Really like your writing today. I can so relate to a big part of it.
Thank you so much for the reminder to take care of ourselves and refresh our bodies and to pray!!!! I pray all day, but don't take enough time to be still and listen for that still, small voice. Love these pictures, she is a cutie! Love the sparkle in her eyes!
Cindi,
Beautiful capture of your daughter's spirit. Just gorgeous. I loved your journaling. I can so relate. I carry much to much myself. I need to constantly remind myself to let go and let God. Maybe it is the mommy control that keeps us tied up in knots. I don't know. Anyway, I just wanted to say, I get it. I'm right in the boat next to you, paddling away.
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